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I love this:

<td align="center"> Amy --
[noun]:

A dance involving little to no clothing

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

That's just awesome. I can't believe I have such a cool definition when I'm so absolutely boring. ;D

Man. I wish I had people who wanted me to make terrible poems about them. =(
But seeing as I don't tend to go on the computer/TS anymore, I can see why no one actually ever talks to me, except my friend Freezie.

Don't ask.

What really made me laugh was how Rayne got all pissed at how Kaylee used the tampon thread as an example. It's just a thread; no need to go bonkers about it. Besides, Kaylee didn't create useless controversy - she just asked a question. The people who replied turned the tampon thing into useless controversy...

Why am I even saying this? I think that thread died about three days ago...then again, I didn't look at the date, so I'm not really sure. -shrug-

I had a weird/scary dream on Saturday night. In my dream, Kylee was a total ass, and I got mad and did something to get a detention. Then it skipped to me taking some important science test in my biology class. My teacher had sat me in the corner, surrounded by signs that said "You're the Worst!" and "No Luck For You, Dunce!" which made me feel horrible to begin with. Then I kept trying to do the test, but the questions would change after I'd written an answer, and I couldn't seem to get the question to stay the same. In the end, I failed, and Mrs. Strauss stood in front of the whole class and said I was the worst student she'd ever had, how she wouldn't be my teacher next year when I was held back, and how she hated every fiber of my being. Then everyone -including Kylee- in the class began to laugh harshly at me, and I ran out of the room. When I got home, my mom started yelling at me about how I was a failure, how she loved Erin so much more than she loved me, how she wished I was never born. That's when I woke up.

For some reason, that was one of the saddest/scariest dreams I've ever had. Guess I'm scared of being alone/a failure or something. -shrug-

You better get on later, Kaylee.

I've discovered the weirdest thing known to man - the existence of Pokemorphs, some sort of cross between Pokemon and people. Don't ask me why I was looking at this crap. It's just fun to draw, that's all.

If you'd like to see my drawings, then I'll have to find a way to get my asshole scanner to work...till then, you'll have to wait.

Digimon the Movie is actually pretty awesome, now that I'm watching it. Even though I don't like Digimon anymore...but what confuses me is, I mean, even TK and Kari's little Digimon people are perfect together; doesn't that mean TK and Kari are? Oh well. -shrug-

Them bunnies are cute, though.

That's all for today, chums.

I really have to see Moulin Rouge. I'm in love with the songs alone. Why can't I ever find it?

So I've already read two books over the weekend - Shadow Thieves by Anna Ursu (or Ana, however it was spelled) and Steve Altan's The Loch. Which in itself was good. Shadow Thieves didn't live up to my expectations, though it wasn't bad. Kaylee, if you're in the mood for a long read, history on a lot of things including Scotland, and some gore, pick the Loch. It's amazing.

I wish I had a Scottish accent. They sound sexy.

We watched Zathura today, and though it was a pretty good movie, there was a bit that was mildly confusing. I mean, I got what they meant, but how it could have ever happened was just beyond my mind.

You know, if I was one of the mutinous crew member present when Columbus set foot on American soil and declared he'd found India, I would've hit him with something as hard as I could and shouted, "Hey asshole! This ain't India!" I mean, if I was some great country with silks, gold, and spices, I wouldn't come running out in loinclothes made out of furs. It seems that, even though these Englishmen thought they were superiorly intelligent to the Indians, that they were pretty much dumb as fucking rocks. Excuse the language.

What really irks me is the way that old Christians seemed to corrupt previous religions so Christianity would become the world leader. Which worked. Poseidon's trident became the devil's pitchfork, Pan the devil's head, and the word "pagan", which is the worship of all natural balances and Nature itself, or so I've been lead to believe, became the word for devil worship. I mean, some may say that Dan Brown (who originally said this, yes, I know) was wrong about that, but c'mon. The similarities are too plain to be missed. Maybe I'm just an idiot, but whatever. I mean, people can be Christians if they want. Like I care. I just don't think Christians should've done that to old religions. And saying that people were barbarians or uncivilized just because their way of life was different or they weren't Christians. Or Catholics, or whatever. Nobody's uncivilized - they just have different ways of living.

That rant really had no point and will probably enrage any Christians I know, but whatever.

I wish I could come up with interesting quotes off the top of my head. It'd be so nice, to go through all my entries and find some quotes that could make my friends giggle. Unfortunately all I'd find is a bunch of immature teenager stuff.

I seem to complain a lot about that lately.

My mother seems to have as many mood swings as I do, and I'm the one who's going through puberty. She won't tell me if she's going through menopause or something. But I know something's wrong: she used to be the greatest mother ever. Now she's constantly yelling and, when I'm actually happy/excited for once, she ruins it by being in a bad mood. She expects a little too much from me, and when I don't do as well as she thought, I'm worthless. Not exactly worthless, but I forgot the right word to use. I seriously believe she's got it in her head that Kylee's boyfriend Josh is going to rape me. She refuses to let me go to Kylee's stepfather's house, and when I ask why, she comes up with "there's not enough supervision" or "you might get into situations that you can't get out of". Even when I tell her that there's about eighteen adults there, and there's no one to "get into situations" with, she says that Kylee was alone long enough to make out/go farther with Josh. Which practically proves that he's going to leave me alone. Why would he rape me if he's all over Kylee? I mean, geez.

Then we had that French final today. Half the questions were crap that wasn't even included in the review packet she gave us, which she said was everything that would be on the test, a fourth was stuff she'd just gotten around to teaching us on Friday, and there were at least two questions she didn't teach us at all. When I tell my mother this, she yells at me and says it's my fault I might bomb the test because I didn't study. So I tell her that the last time I crammed my head, the last time I even just read over the chapters, I got a 75 on the test, she says that I still should've studied. I do better when I don't study. So I say, "Well, Kylee studied for a really long time, and she still didn't know what half of it was." Mom replies with "Well I don't care about other kids." I think that's just a parent's excuse because they don't have a better answer.

I really wish I knew what the hell was up with her. But maybe I'm just blind and it's actually my fault. Whatever.

I've been thinking. And ya know, I think that to get a good debate going, you have to stomp on some opinions. I mean, if you just accept them all and say, "Oh, well, that could be true..." then where will the debate sprout from? You have to be like, "That's wrong because blah blah blah" or else the whole thing'll be for naught.

Someone's probably figured this out/put it into words before me, but I don't care.

Watched a bunch of good Sci-Fi movies over the weekend: Deep Core, The Odyssey, Jason and the Argonauts, and a mini-series called Arabian Nights. The last one was really good, especially the story about the three brothers - Prince Ali (I think he was the eldest, or maybe he was someone else in a different story - I don't remember) had some sweet sword moves. All I know was that he was the eldest brother, he got the carpet, and he had a pretty face. ;D Well, he should've been the eldest, because he was the guy with the swords...whatever.

Jason and the Argonauts and the Odyssey were pretty good, too. Seeing as I'm a fan of Greek mythology, they were splendid. And Hermes had awesome hair. ;D But what I thought was a bit ironic and a little funny was that Odysseus, throughout the years he was away, kept worrying whether his wife Penelope was still faithful to him - most of the time he was worrying about this was when he was in bed with either that red-haired Goddess (was that Artemis?) or Callypso (is that how you spell it?). Plus, when he was going to the Underworld, and all the men were hugging him good-bye, I swear that that moment was the first ancient gang bang...

But maybe that's just my sick mind.

Jason was awesome. He would've been cooler if he'd cut his hair, but I suppose that was the style back then. I was so sad when Hercules died - kinda freaked out when Jason was holding him and he suddenly disappeared. Then when Zeus tried to seduce Medea, and was flickering all over the place while whispering "Medea"; I really can't see why she wasn't freaked out by that. Then again, it's a movie, so there's really no logic in it.

What I thought was exceptionally hilarious really had nothing to do with the movie itself. Well, it sorta did. You see, my sister watched that movie in her seventh grade English class. And there's this one part where the leader of an island of women that sacrific men screws Jason, then licks his chest. I was like, eww. And they watched that in school. Where even commercials for PG movies are forbidden.

Kinda strange.

That's my input for the day. Enjoy.

So I just read through July's latest entry, seeing as I had nothing better to do and was once again pissed at the reaction to my rant. Once again, I'm reminded of how absolutely immature I sound in all of my LJ posts. And the way that July practically tore that girl Becky apart - amazing, absolutely amazing.


About that rant. Kaylee and I decided to make a rant on the way that roleplaying seems to have no point. I had already made one, but because we told VD he made no sense and because Kaylee went off topic for 2.6 seconds, VD got pissed and shut down the board, saying I could repost if I reworded it to make sense. It wasn't that he was insulting me by shutting off my board - it was that he insulted this rant in particular. I actually believe it was one of my more understandable rants.

But whatever.

Anyway, when I reposted it exactly the same way as before, I pretty much got the same replies - with the exception of no comments from Bella or VD, and July made a good point, unlike everyone else. It seems that people will reply just because they want to say "Yeah, I was there" and not because they actually have something to contribute. Practically every single post, except for July's and the person who quoted July's, was about how that person roleplayed for fun. I said that I knew most people rped because of that in my rant, and yet they insist on repeating it every time they speak.

Oh yes. As in the first rant, I also had someone say that if I didn't like roleplaying then I should shut up and head out. That was an expression of opinion, NOT a few paragraphs about why I can't stand roleplaying. Jeez. Since I'm not allowed to say this on T-S, I'll say it here - T-Sers really just don't like someone saying what they want to say, unless it's an opinion held up by one of the mods or popular high-posters. Then most everyone jumps behind that person, instantly agreeing. Like I (and Kaylee) have stated before on that site, individualism is frowned upon. Not ALWAYS, but in my experience, often.

If you can't take an immensely creative character and produce an intro so thoroughly detailed that that character becomes extremely uninteresting and a waste of space, then you're not as cool as those who can. Which I believe is quite ridiculous. Who'd rather read a long, boring intro compared to a short, snazzy, interesting one? Maybe some of you do; if you do, then to each his own.

I also noticed that the only person who agreed with me after VD/some of the more popular T-S people stated how my rant was a bust was Kaylee.Then again, we worked on this rant together; but still. No one felt even a bit drawn to even one point. They couldn't say, "Oh yeah, you're right, sometimes it does feel like RPs last forever" because they'd probably get some shifty looks later on. Or they think they would. That's just how T-S is built, I guess.

Now, whoever feels like throwing away a few moments of their life to read this, feel free to come smack me with your "we are all individuals!" or "stop being general/redundant!" speeches. And Kaylee, once you review this, please also feel free to point out any contradicting/incorrect points for me.

P.S. Because the person this is referring to was nice enough not to yell at me in particular, I'll give them the same courtesy. Really, why not attack what I ranted about instead of attacking my intellect, career oppurtunities, the way I speak, how I handled disagreements to my arguement, and the support I got from Kaylee? If you had a rant, you'd like a friend to agree with you, wouldn't you? If I stomped on anyone's opinions, please, point that out to me, instead of saying I'm "fucking stupid" and that I believe I'm always right. The last time I checked I wasn't a hypocrite. I may make contradicting statements at times, or do something that contradicts what I said, but I'm not constantly a hypocrite. When people don't make sense, can't think up a disagreement that has anything related to the arguement, and can't think up anything but a "yeah me too" to what the person above them said, I tend to tell them off. If you're yelling at me for stomping on the opinions of others and being a hypocrite, you're really being one yourself, aren't you, saying I'm wrong to act the way I do? I said something about the way you seemed to nitpick. You really don't need to blow up at me as though I'd gone in your house and shot your brother.

But because I'm annoyingly passive at times, I won't hold a grudge.

P.S.S. What's up with all this Jack/Elizabeth crap in PotC 2? What happened to Will/Elizabeth? If it turns out that Elizabeth's a whore that's going to be all over Jack in the sequel, I'll get mad. They shouldn't ruin sequels that way, by making them inconsistent and contradicting to the original...